|
[17 Oct 2006|12:00am] |
http://www.ntlworld.com/news/story_uk.php?page_zone=223.1.1&storyid=42055051
12 years is not enough. Life in prison should be LIFE. It outrages me when people do stuff like this, fucking sadistic bastards should be the ones going on the ground, not the ones who get put in prisons and get fed each day for free and who dont have to work, they just sit in a cell, eat free food and do as there told. Prison isnt enough for someone who PLANNED to kill another child. He needs hour long sessions of being beaten and whipped, a day to recover and the same again but harder each day. ARGH! Im actually fully raged. if i ever saw his stupid face in the flesh id rip it off.
|
|
| Yey! Internets! |
[20 Sep 2006|08:32am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 happy |
] |
Hello all my lovleys... well like ... 3-4 of you i think? :D, i now have internet again! :) A few things of mild interest, or you might not be mildly interested, but i just had a really really awesome long weekend in london :)
Can't remember if i mentioned i met a girl at the Leeds Music Festival, well she's called Tara, shes 33, amazingly cute/funny/kind etc.. i went down to london to spend a long weekend, got to her at about 6pm friday night, left about 8am tuesday morning :) All in all a really good weekend ^_^
^__________^
|
|
|
[01 Aug 2006|07:25am] |
| [ |
music |
| |
T.a.t.u - Loves me not |
] |
Ugh this week is really gonna kill me, its 7:30 and i need to leave the house at 8:30, havnt showered yet, im really not in the mood today, id much rather go back to sleep, wake up at 12 and casually spend all day leveling on ffxi while playing dmc3 on my ps2.
because im not getting a lift back from work it takes me about an hour longer to get home, it'd probly be quicker to walk from blakedown to kidderminster, i might try it today and see how long it takes me.
they owe me 340 pounds, which is alittle over 600 dollars in wages, i better get it today, i need to stick some in the bank so i can buy something off play.com
hmmm i guess i better have a shower, then trek to the train station and catch the hellishly shit trains to work.
I wish someone would invent a radio thats like the size of a grain of rice that u can clip into your ear, so its completly invisible to the naked eye but i could sit at working listening to the radio or somat and no one would know
|
|
| by order of the rules |
[05 Jul 2006|03:59pm] |
Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest/funniest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours.
|
|
| Back in stafford |
[22 Apr 2006|09:28am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 content |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
John Frusciante - Away And Anyware |
] |
Well im finally all moved in back at stafford, only me and ed are here at the moment, he didnt go home for easter though, sadface :/, sam is coming today i think, not sure about matty and tom will be here sunday, till alot of work todo before monday 3.15 >,<, stupid handins'.
Spoke to cat quite abit last night :), i was trying to subtly hint to her i wanted her to come over, but im crap at giving hints :E
I even told her i was cold and needed warming up, but she said 'put layers on' lol... ah well, im taking her out to dinner on tuesday and were gonna watch a dvd at my house after, so that should be good :), we kissed at the end of our last date so i feel alot more stable with what i do around her, im fairly sure she actually likes me, she txt's me and activly talks to me unlike other girls ive met up with who just wanted a free drink lol..
Ed just logged on msn lol my 2 6000rpm fans in my pc case probly woke him up haha :D
Well i better go do some work, Note to self, dont forget about eggs boiling on the hob!!. (ive done this lots of times and destroyed many a pan and breakfast to say the least.
|
|
| uni work, the continuing struggle. |
[22 Mar 2006|09:24pm] |
work work work work, sleep, work work, drink, sleep, work work work, game game game work work work, sleep... etc?
Seems monotonous?, you dont know the half of it. I practically have 4 things do to in life atm, work, sleep, or consume a food/drink product and play games.
Its kinda getting to me, migranes and stuff.. i would have ninja to look forward to, but ive got a really bad cold and dont wanna infect the others and so am not going for now.
ooo, i can lift weights in my room too... fun., well that i dont actually mind, but i like to listen to music if im exercising and jacks a moody cow who has to have silence if hes playing cs..
soooo, 8 weeks hes been living/squatting in my room now? lol.
Oh yeh.. note to self.. do washing.
oh yeh, and give up on girls actually replying to you!, taking ur number is just politeness.
|
|
| Hello old friend. |
[13 Mar 2006|02:57am] |
| [ |
music |
| |
John Frusciante - Murderers |
] |
Well, i guess i should start writing in my journal again. Too many months have been uncatalogued and lost.
Now: im chewing on a knife.
Then: i was cutting with a knife.
Ive not cut myself once yet, and im chewing on a rather sharp knife, fate would have me cut my tongue, but we'll see. Too much bad and not enough good. The knife isnt allowed to cut me ¬_¬
Note to self: Work on director all day tomorow and get the prototype for Timebased multimedia working
Now sleep.
|
|
| Ive never felt so many emotions at once |
[25 Jan 2006|02:30am] |
This feeling of, betrayal, rejection, anger, hate, sadness, emptyness and rage all roled into one, its something ive never experianced, and wont soon forget.
Life isnt going to stand still, neither are my deadlines, god i wish for a drunk driver sometimes to just knock me into a wonderful coma, a dreaming releif from life.
To say i never loved her is and will always be a lie. To say im dont regret things i said no more than a few hours ago would also be a lie, but we are all human, and all humans can do is lie, and lie well they shall.
Faith in something that doesnt exist, is nothing but false hope, as is beleiving that a lie is not a lie.
Two years of my life, not wasted, they were in honesty the happiest of my life, but now that its hit rock bottom, i can only but respect that happyness and think back on it. Im still alive, others arnt, my life will go on, as much as id like it not to.
In times like these, all you want is someone to fall on, but no one really cares. They cant really help you, the only person who can help you is yourself.
I shall miss alot of things. I shall miss companionship. but i shant miss being lied to.
The only person you can truly trust is yourself, so why do you need anyone else. The world is dog eat dog. And this dog just broke his leash.
Live is a series of decisions, some for us to make, others for others. Right or wrong life never stops until the very end. That moment that felt like it stood still for eternity never did. So get over it. No one gives a shit. No ones looking out for you. You have to look after yourself or your existance as a being of self awareness is worthless.
Morn the dead, but fuck the living, they are just other players in the game of life.
|
|
| My nap started at 9 and ended at 5am. |
[31 Dec 2005|05:32am] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Rammstein - Der Meister |
] |
hmm some nap..8 hour sleep. :/ damn it.
So its new years eve, brilliant. I think im gonna go walk the dogs as soon as the sun comes up. i need to get some fresh air, stop slowly deforming into a hunchbacked neanderthal who can only speak using numbers l0l th4t5 50 c00l.. etc...:/
Simplicity, Patience and Compassion are the three most valuable treasures - Lao Tzu , founder of Taoism
|
|
| BF2 Special forces? NOT IN KIDDERMINSTER. |
[28 Dec 2005|02:21pm] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Cars driving past my open window |
] |
Apparently battlefield2:special forces is something that just isnt for sale in kidderminster.
I went into town to buy rum, saw nicky, :O suprise, she was on her lunch break, we doubled back from tescos in an attempt to find somewhere for her to eat some lunch, to no avail, everything was packed, she went back to work, i decided geese were cuddly while finishing off my juice and then went into tescos to get alcohol, 1 bottle of vodka for nicky because me and aitch drank her bottle a while back :E
she claims she can see things, i can not, i wanna slap her sometimes ¬_¬.
hmm, i got mildly excited about the snow the other day because when i saw it, it was quite torrential blizzard death stormy, now its just snow, slowly melting under peoples feets as they tread it into the mudd.
Ruben has a disgrunteld look on his face, my typing seems to have awoken him from his warm cuddly slumber on my bed.
Im gonna walk the dogs, come back, take a shower and then watch some anime ive been downloading since 9am this morning, after that i think drinks at aitches is in order, because that is what friends do. They socialise. And just because they are opposite sex doesnt mean they instantly have a sexual lusty attration to one another, they just happen to be friends. And as far as im concerned, that is the end of the matter.
Damn you Game, damn you gamestation. I require BF2:SF!!!!
|
|
| Headachingly fresh. |
[02 Dec 2005|09:58pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 stupid headache |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Mudvayne - Happy? |
] |
Ughh, been doing 3ds max for like 7hours straight today, im fed up but if i can get up to a point where im ready to animate i dont have to do anything until nez gets the video off his camera.
I think im gonna atleast force myself to get up to that point so i can switch back onto VMA for abit.
Ive got a splitting headache, its one of the ones that if u close ur eyes and push them it goes away until u let go. Im probly just tired, i think ill finish this max work. have a shower and try for an early night. 1am or somat.
Christine is here, her and tommy have the door locked. It doesnt bother me, but it reminds me how much i miss nicky. In a house where i can get no peace at all, im infinitly lonly. Sleep is good, it passes time, heals wounds and lets me relax for hours on end. I wish i could just sleep straight through till christmas.
|
|
| Freezing Snow.. its wonderful. |
[28 Nov 2005|06:35pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 and sleepy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Nine Inch Nails - With Teeth |
] |
I always love when it snows, because i can never remember the last time it snowed. So its almost always a new experience, even though its blatently not.
I got up at 12 today, read the book nicky lent me for an hour or so, i got through the introduction and ive started on a short story about some ex-rockstar who found an excuse to fake his own death and live away from it all, and another band member recently passed away, but sent him a package, with cremation ashes in, its all quite odd, i like it, i recon the other band member isnt dead either. I'll read on later.
Anyway, i got into the shower at about 2.30, go out about 3 :E. walked to my lecture for 4, was alright, makes a change from slowly evolving my spine into a natural slouch sat in my computer chair. I try to sit up, but im too used to sitting on my tail bone, it feels natural now. Just got in, went to olly's on the way back, snow had claimed it first victim, there drive is a huge slope, and one of ollys house mates car slid down the drive lol.
Oh, i got a bag of crisps and a bottle of mineral water from co-op on the way to my lecture, it tided my hunger, doubt i'll eat much more, it all requires cooking, i might mix some mashed potatoe up for abit of a tea later, depends how i feel. I think cups of tea are needed indefinitly tho.
I feel very emotionless atm, i just wanna drudge though uni until christmas get my work done and go home, ive been home two weekends in a row, and it makes me feel warm to be around loved ones, aitch was kind enough to let me invade her shack quite late saturday night, shes a good person to talk to when u just wanna talk for the sake of talking. In highschool she'd always be in the same place at lunchtime, it was kinda cool. i always knew where she was, and i dont think she felt rejected if i didnt show at lunch.. i mean we wernt close as such, but she's a good mate. Being a boy i naturally wanted to go play fight on the field at every chance i got.
I need a tape measure, i wanna monitor how exercise and working out effects my body and muscles, im not fussed on how heavy i am, 16 stone is fine, but aslong as its not fat, if i was 17 stone again, but a mass of toned man muscles. then it'd be fine, i need to get rid of the gut completly.
Well time to get back to work, drove over ideas, delete them, and do them again.. i need to get some concrete stuff down or im gonna fail, i think ill change the module im working on for a while, 3d character modeling is something i can do easier than Visual Media Applications, so ill go with that for now, its gonna be handed in on the 8th anyway, vma isnt due until the 16th.
|
|
| Good Morning Star Shine |
[25 Nov 2005|03:52pm] |
Muhahaha i get to sleep in late. Every day! :D
Work isnt going as swiftly as i'd hoped, but ive made much progress with planning, obtaining footge to use, ideas for scene transitions etc.
I need to put it all together with the knowledge i have >.< damn hard work.. and my time on games is suffering :( i miss games.
I think ill play ffxi tonight for the first time in like 2weeks actually. I wonder if anyone noticed the 'britain' from the clan just dissapeared.
Damn, i smell, need a shower.. Nicky smells like chicken nuggets. So does Aitch.
|
|
| Sausage sandwiches and the most sensitive fire alarms ever. |
[22 Nov 2005|03:30pm] |
Well i got up around 11, started some work, it got to about 1:30, so i thought, ill have something to eat, i attempted to grill 4 sausages... all was going well until the fire alarm decided it was time to be so sensitive that a mild sniff is all thats needed to set it off. Oh fun, i woke matty and ed up :)
The sandwich was nice tho, ive been drinking water since, bought some stuff at asda last night, it wasnt too cold at 3 this morning, quite mild in comparison with the rest of the day.
Im seeing about getting a cool photo of me and dan blown up to poster size, i feel alone alot, even tho im surrounded by people here. I always used to have nicky coming around in 2 weeks or something like that to keep me going, i'll get to see her at christmas, so thats gonna keep me going for now, she text me last night, im glad were keeping in good touch, i still need her to be there for me even if were not strictly 'together', and ofcourse it goes without saying id do the same if she needs me.
LJ is good to get stuff off your chest, and im gonna use it as kinda well a proper diary really.. ive never had one before. and im so forgetful. I dont even remember when that photo of me and dan was taken, but id love to have a diary of memorys for that day, so now im not going to let myself forget anything. Sad, Happy, Good, Bad, it'll all be here, so that in a few years, i can thumb through it all and remind myself of how much ive done. I think im gonna climb mt. snowdon again sometime, i did it with the scouts years ago, but i think i could do it on my own, or with a few friends. Ill take a camera this time, and photograph the world.
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
loosingmygrip's journal